I swear to Bob - if I hear the flippin' taylor swift song 1 more time .!!!

This was not originally going to be titled that but then the song came on just as I clicked in the Title box... - and i'm not having great relationship times and therefore it's only natural to take it out on Taylor Swift and Target for running her clothes line.

At this point, I'm sitting in my room, (trying to digest my food as fast as I can because I ate too much and it's hurting my belly but this is expected on Chili day), waiting for Johnny to call me and tell me. We're supposed to talk tonight, but I don't know if he's going to keep to that - but we need to talk. The bottom line is that he hurt me (emotionally), and he is not taking it as seriously as I think he should. I refuse to put myself through another whiney, immature relationship in which I have to baby the man. I won't do it again.

I'm very sad. I'm sad for me. I'm sad for my friends, Naja and Josie, and I feel like I'm being a damper on my friends here at college because of my mood - and that is the exact opposite of who I ever want to be.

I wish I could be happy again like I was yesterday with Scott and Cloud. If Johnny is the one who loves me, then shouldn't he be the one making me happy? I don't even know what I did wrong. or if I did anything wrong. I feel like it's going to be a very emotional night, which is why I didn't wear mascara.

I hate waiting...