So Johnny left today - and Aaron too, but mostly Johnny. and I was fine until I was on the way back from the movie. I went and saw UP and so of course I'm feeling all sentimental and what not - and suddenly I get that really heavy but empty longing feeling in the pit of my stomach and couldn't wait until I got home so I could go up to my room and cry.
I live a spoiled life, and i hate not being able to have what I want and so it really sucks that Johnny isn't here - and that when he was here it wasn't like it normally is when he comes - we had to share a lot of attention with other people.
Like, i said, I was fine when he left - I usually cry for a while after he leaves, but it didn't happen this time - i just kinda- moved on with my day - so in a way, I'm almost relieved that I'm miserable now- and that's why humans are strange.
In other news - my new goal is to obtain a job a Teavana!
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Indian Land
Today was alright - You'd think i'd be happier with Johnny here - it's just been a little out of pace with Aaron and Danny here too I guess - we normally have time to ourselves throughout the day, not the case this time.
We went to Indian Town today and I FINALLY got some Indian food - still wasn't as good as Johnny's moms - but I felt really insecure. Johnny took me into a store expecting me to all excited about the clothes in there - but instead I just got really nervous - I just wasn't sure how to act. I felt a little our of place - or more between the two places.
On a top note - I got to talk to Jillie today - and then make chocolate shakes while watching "The Gods Must Be Crazy 2." However, I quickly discovered that I was feeling overly sensitive and easily brought to tears when my dad pointed out a mistake I had made with the bank and then proceeded to get frustrated with me - rightfully so. So, I lost it after he went to bed and cried in the bathroom - FOR ONCE, I'd like Johnny to be able to come visit me without having to leave with a shirt shoulder full of boogers, tears, and mascara --> Part of me thinks he likes it though, not the booger part, but getting to be the one who holds me when I cry. I should write him a song about it - because no one else has ever thought to put that in a song before. ever.
ok... i'm going to bed now. If I was with you, I would like to first exchange forget-me-nots. but, such as life.
~night
We went to Indian Town today and I FINALLY got some Indian food - still wasn't as good as Johnny's moms - but I felt really insecure. Johnny took me into a store expecting me to all excited about the clothes in there - but instead I just got really nervous - I just wasn't sure how to act. I felt a little our of place - or more between the two places.
On a top note - I got to talk to Jillie today - and then make chocolate shakes while watching "The Gods Must Be Crazy 2." However, I quickly discovered that I was feeling overly sensitive and easily brought to tears when my dad pointed out a mistake I had made with the bank and then proceeded to get frustrated with me - rightfully so. So, I lost it after he went to bed and cried in the bathroom - FOR ONCE, I'd like Johnny to be able to come visit me without having to leave with a shirt shoulder full of boogers, tears, and mascara --> Part of me thinks he likes it though, not the booger part, but getting to be the one who holds me when I cry. I should write him a song about it - because no one else has ever thought to put that in a song before. ever.
ok... i'm going to bed now. If I was with you, I would like to first exchange forget-me-nots. but, such as life.
~night
Saturday, June 6, 2009
She's Back!
So guess what! I remembered I have a blog. So many cool things happened, most of them in the last week- that I want to tell you about, but I''m lazy and don't feel like typing them out. So tough - you should have been there.
Anyways - fyi - i'm planning on being back on this thing now.
For today's update I just wanted to point out 2 things about my last post - 1.) I sound really materialistic, and 2.) I was just noticing, and finding it humorous that the dresses at Victoria's Secret are more modest than any i've seen elsewhere so far...that we're ugly. The End.
OH! One last thing, I bought this awesome ceramic-ish three planty-pot set from 10,000 Villages today. It's super cool and I ihave no idea what I want to plant in them yet. Any suggestions?
Anyways - fyi - i'm planning on being back on this thing now.
For today's update I just wanted to point out 2 things about my last post - 1.) I sound really materialistic, and 2.) I was just noticing, and finding it humorous that the dresses at Victoria's Secret are more modest than any i've seen elsewhere so far...that we're ugly. The End.
OH! One last thing, I bought this awesome ceramic-ish three planty-pot set from 10,000 Villages today. It's super cool and I ihave no idea what I want to plant in them yet. Any suggestions?
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