all gone

So Johnny left today - and Aaron too, but mostly Johnny. and I was fine until I was on the way back from the movie. I went and saw UP and so of course I'm feeling all sentimental and what not - and suddenly I get that really heavy but empty longing feeling in the pit of my stomach and couldn't wait until I got home so I could go up to my room and cry.

I live a spoiled life, and i hate not being able to have what I want and so it really sucks that Johnny isn't here - and that when he was here it wasn't like it normally is when he comes - we had to share a lot of attention with other people.

Like, i said, I was fine when he left - I usually cry for a while after he leaves, but it didn't happen this time - i just kinda- moved on with my day - so in a way, I'm almost relieved that I'm miserable now- and that's why humans are strange.


In other news - my new goal is to obtain a job a Teavana!

Indian Land

Today was alright - You'd think i'd be happier with Johnny here - it's just been a little out of pace with Aaron and Danny here too I guess - we normally have time to ourselves throughout the day, not the case this time.

We went to Indian Town today and I FINALLY got some Indian food - still wasn't as good as Johnny's moms - but I felt really insecure. Johnny took me into a store expecting me to all excited about the clothes in there - but instead I just got really nervous - I just wasn't sure how to act. I felt a little our of place - or more between the two places.

On a top note - I got to talk to Jillie today - and then make chocolate shakes while watching "The Gods Must Be Crazy 2." However, I quickly discovered that I was feeling overly sensitive and easily brought to tears when my dad pointed out a mistake I had made with the bank and then proceeded to get frustrated with me - rightfully so. So, I lost it after he went to bed and cried in the bathroom - FOR ONCE, I'd like Johnny to be able to come visit me without having to leave with a shirt shoulder full of boogers, tears, and mascara --> Part of me thinks he likes it though, not the booger part, but getting to be the one who holds me when I cry. I should write him a song about it - because no one else has ever thought to put that in a song before. ever.

ok... i'm going to bed now. If I was with you, I would like to first exchange forget-me-nots. but, such as life.

~night

She's Back!

So guess what! I remembered I have a blog. So many cool things happened, most of them in the last week- that I want to tell you about, but I''m lazy and don't feel like typing them out. So tough - you should have been there.

Anyways - fyi - i'm planning on being back on this thing now.

For today's update I just wanted to point out 2 things about my last post - 1.) I sound really materialistic, and 2.) I was just noticing, and finding it humorous that the dresses at Victoria's Secret are more modest than any i've seen elsewhere so far...that we're ugly. The End.

OH! One last thing, I bought this awesome ceramic-ish three planty-pot set from 10,000 Villages today. It's super cool and I ihave no idea what I want to plant in them yet. Any suggestions?

Money - that's what I want

I've lost it. I've come to find that shopping is the equivalent of on-line porn for me. I get on a site for Forever 21 or Charlotte Russe- and I just. can't. stop. I have to look at every dress on the page. Same with rings. One day, I spent hours looking at diamond rings on-line. I really do think that i have a problem.

However, I might as well show you what I found. Today's selection comes from none other than Victoria's Secret. (Do your best to ignore the mass amounts of cleavage and annoying, posed faces...and I don't think I'd be able to be on the beach as much either. haha


I think that this one is my favorite.

I'd also have to get a hat to go with this one.


I thought that this one would be nice for like, a summer evening or something. Don't worry, it comes in different colors - otherwise I don't think that I'd like it.

I've been noticing that a lot of these models look like movie//tv stars. The first one looked like Kiera Knightly. This one kind of looks like Courtney Cox.
umm... I wonder if she's happy or in pain?


You know - just in case i'm picking flowers in Venice.I kinda liked the colors on this one...but I don't think I have the boobs to be able to fill it out.


I'd have to be careful with this one, or I'll end up looking like a dumb, dazed Phelicity.

It's only a matter of time before the shark gets her. But at least she has cute buttons on her dress!

So yeah, that was my collection for the day. I'm not even going to tell you the prices for most of these dresses. At least I can say that they were under $100! There were actually a few more that I liked, but I really just felt embarrased for the girls in the pictures, so i decided not to post them.... Ok. that's enough for today. i should try and get SOME homework done before work.

Tootles!

Act II: Donielle attempts to re-instate her will to blog.

In the spirit of the coming Spring, I've decided to maybe try and blog again. Most of it will be menial stuff like :today i did this, and then Christina was all like, NAH, and so I was all like NEH, and then Jillie was like NU-AH. But for Spanish class I have to look up information again sexual images in movies, so maybe that can be my wholesome-doing-good-for-the-world contribution to the blog.

Jillie and I are going to go make soup b/c I had a dream about soup last night. SO we have to go to the grocery store to get vegetables, and then we're going to go out for lunch. I HOPE WE GO TO NOODLES AND COMPANY!!!

In the spirit of spending money - look what I want:


My mom said that it was too mauve - but that doesn't make since to me. It's under $30 dollars too, which to me has be a reasonable price lately.
Ok. off to the store, the grocery store.

Another point for Doni

Another boy told me I looked nice today. Score one for me.

Other than that, I'm feeling kind of abandoned... and cold - (but that's mostly because people keep opening the door and letting cold air in.) I always forget how sensitive I am.

I'm not ready for Spring Semester to start...

Since you been gone... *another Dear Jillie,*

Clever title, eh? I bet it would make a really good song.

Dear Jillie,

This are the things I have to say that pertain to "since you been gone." You might already know some of these.

1. I read your blog 98% more than I used to.
2. Johnny and I got into a relationship defining fight.
3. I hurt my arm holding up Johnny when we finally went ice-skating. It was his first time.
4. I have been on my computer twice as much as you ever were when you were here.
5. I learned how to play Winter Song on my gee-tar.
6. I spend Saturdays in your room watching made for T.V. movies - by the way, I saw Another Cinderella Story yesterday, maybe it was because I was alone, but i didn't think it was as good as you made it out to be.
7. Totally jealous of your new blog look - you'll have to show me how you did that.
8. I use the interjection "Dude" tons more than any normal societal person should.
9. Despite my shut-in Saturdays, I have become more extroverted.
10. Christina has gotten upset with me for not living with her, only to tell me that she'll probably live with her suite mates in a house.
11. I meet a new person every day.
12. I got Johnny to decide to spend $70 on me for an outfit that he helped me pick out at express. I'M FINALLY GETTING A PENCIL SKIRT!!
13. Old Navy went out of business.
14. I grew up... sorta.
15. I discovered that Ingrid Michaelson has two other albums out, one which just came out in October.
16. I met Cloud and he told Johnny that I'm gorgeous. I met him through Scott, who thinks I'm cute. (I hope no one has to sit behind me in the movies because my head may be to big to see over. haha)
17. I get twice as nervous around boys than I used to...one in particular.

And that's a good portion of that.

And now a list of artists that I would put an my fantasy playlist that I would title "Girls Rock"
1. Katy Perry (Just "Hot and Cold")
2. Ingrid Michealson (and her new songs "Winter Song" and "Be Ok")
3. Kate Nash
4. Meiko
5. Tegan and Sara
6. The Dollyrots
7. A Fine Frenzy
8. Sara Bareilles (*you only get 1 song too, unless you count the one with Ingrid*)
9. Jayman
10. Feist
ok, Lily Allen, you can come too, but try and narrow it down a bit with the F-Bomb, and bring the Hush Sound with you.

And that's about it for now, i guess. I think I'll go clean my room or something now... I'm very alone.